You Are …

It’s been awhile ..
A lot of solitude
A lot of trying to convince myself I’m incapable of giving a f*** about you

Holding my hands
Calling me “pretty”
Licking your lips
Charming and witty

Don’t you get it?
Leave me alone.
I’ll never ever admit it
I’ll convert my emotions into opposites
Then exude them amidst the confusion
Then watch you chase the lies
like little black butterflies
While I sneak away with what’s mine

I hope I have a nightmare tonight
A vivid reminder of the chaotic story behind the bruised face of the girl I euthanized sometime ago
I need to refresh my fears

What is it about you?
You sneaky bastard
You closeted hopeless romantic
Secretly trying to hack into my mind
Break down my defenses
Enrapture my soul
And whisper words of freedom
to all the doubts inside of me
that you are …yes, you are …

You are all I need to move on.